a little brown cat and a wolf in sheep's clothing
can I please buy a letter
catch the diamond crying
do you have the time
don't need to pay bils anymore
Drugs and Money
Living Beyond My Taste For It
fill my life better
groundhog day
he is my man right now
I guesd I started singing
I'm no jesus I'm no noah
last great gentrifiers
memory enemy
something back
song they will play at our funeral
why god loves you
world reason enough to stop
you said well you say
you would be amazed
your god is my god
months are coming faster and faster. I turned 23 last week. When I made this website I was 20 years old. It is frightening but it is nothing new to humans as a whole. Love and Peace is so hard right now. My country is evil. My countrymen are evil. I have been evil at times. I am always pushing myself to write more and write more and write more and then a month and a half pass and I have 40 minutes of songs for you to listen to. Some songs in there are bad. Some are great. I honestly think you should listen to all of them. I don't know what you have to lose. I have learned a lot from the last 3 years and have made a lot of mistakes and hurt a lot of people. I am now the age that my friends were when I met them. Everyone who was my age when I met them is lost to time. I restarted life every 6 months starting in 2022 and only starting this year do I see a standard operation forming in my life. This will of course uproot soon enough again.
I went on tour with my 64 year old father a week or so ago. We went from LA to Vancouver and back within a week and a half. I still don't know what we both got out of it. Maybe just some time together. I wanted to show him my life. But he was uncomfortable at points which I think at the end of the day is a good thing I just wish he didn't get sick towards the end. Made me feel awful to see him so weak. On my birthday my mother sendtme an email which was our first correspondence since august 2024. She was saying she had changed. She was saying my sister had changed. I have gotten those kinds of emails from her before. I just don't believe them anymore. I just don't know what I would even want from that anymore.Also makes me feel awful, I forgive her for everything but the thing she is about to do. The past is the past but I don't trust the future.
California is so beautiful. Me and my dad were walking along the water of the Santa Monica beach at sunrise. He realized that if I was born in california and spent my childhood in Nebraska and now live on the East Coast in a way I sort have been working my whole life to go east of my birth place and if i continue at that pace when I die I'll walk out of the Pacific onto the santa monica beach and croak on the boardwalk. It is sort of an appealing idea. There will be a documentary featuring footage of me and my father's travel at some point. Who knows how good it will be.
I used to be so insecure that nobody could tell me anything which is a way you can victimize everyone you love. Now people can tell me things. Thank god. Thank god for sofe, sloane, sloane, cassondra, lex, rhea, jules, jules, chase, cody, scotty, gavin, gracie, ruby, shiloh, ben, my dad, alice. would be lots harder without you all please stay longer in my life.
lots of boring information about me! I am allowed to blog it is my website...
